where have you been,
my turning dream?
This journal is going not going to be sugarcoated. If I am upset over something, I'm not going to filter myself here. If I go too far, THEN I'll fix something.
This is a personal safe space to let out my raw emotions. Some entries will be silly, some will be depressing as hell.



☆ Rambles from the Boulevard
Date: 4/10/26
Mood: EXHAUSTED
Listening to: purity ring - lemonlime
Eating: Taco Bell
written by (primarily): Digi
Heyyy there's a trend I've noticed that I really don't like :(
Usually when a big corporate platform messes up, people chant to bring back forums and small sites and say they want to move to something else without losing all their friends and... I have the solutions for all of those! I happily give out resources and try to be helpful because I am passionate about keeping the web a personal and customizable experience... And then when I do give them the answers to their issues, I get yelled at with "nobody's gonna use that"
Like .. I'm sorry? You want something but then get upset when someone gives you the tools to what you want and how to do it in way that doesn't come to with a high price tag (if any). It gives me mixed signals and just kinda bums me out. I thought you wanted help and to make things better...
Admittedly, I think a lot of these pleas are just irony, and that always stings when I realize that. I hate jokes like this in general since I struggle so hard to not take things literally (because of autism) so I always hope seeing this means people will get inspired to make things better... only for me to realize we weren't in the same boat. I'm someone who REALLY wants to see all these things.
There's tools to still make static sites. There's tools tools to still make forums. There's tools to still make oekaki boards. There's still tools to make fun little time-wasting games you can play on your browser. There's still communities that can come together and make magic happen. Yes, the corporatization of the Internet made it more difficult, but I also think complacency and the defeatist doomer epidemic is contributing to the wells drying up.
I'm genuinely shocked the sheer amount of nostalgic yearning isn't causing a widespread movement to fight to get the whimsy back and the tools are plentiful. We already figured out interconnected decentralized social media in the form of fediverse and ATProto... so why not take that next step?
Date: 2/18/26
Mood: tired
Working on: homepage revamp
Eating: cereal
the journal section has been wiped and will be starting anew because holy fucking shit I was a massive whiny bitch, especially pre-ego death lmao.
I do actually want to write something extensive, but I'll try not to make it look like some fucking pity party Feel Bad For Me bullshit, trying to knock that right out of myself. Oh, and I'm starting to take working on this site more seriously again and started being a lot more comfortable in my own skin.